24-year old Pax Tate is an asshole.
He’s a tattooed, rock-hard bad-boy with a bad attitude to match.
But he’s got his reasons.
His mother died when Pax was seven, leaving a hole in his heart filled with guilt although he doesn’t understand why. What he does know is that he and his dad are left alone and with more issues than they can count.
As Pax grew up, he tried to be the kid his father always wanted; the perfect golden boy, but it didn’t work. His dad couldn’t overcome his grief long enough to notice and Pax couldn’t keep up the impossible perfect façade. So he slipped far, far from it.
Now, he uses drugs and women to cope with the ugliness, the black void that he doesn’t want to deal with. If he pretends that the emptiness isn’t there, then it isn’t, right?
And it’s never more apparent than when he meets Mila. Sweet, beautiful Mila Hill is the fresh air to his hardened frown, the beauty to his ugly heart. He doesn’t know how to not hurt her, but he quickly realizes that he’s got to figure it out because he needs her to breathe.
When memories of his mother’s death resurface from where he’s repressed them for so long, Mila is there to catch him when the guilt starts making sense. Mila is the one…the one who can save him from his broken troubled heart; from his issues, from the emptiness.
But only if he can stop being an asshole long enough to allow it.
He knows that. And he’s working on it.
But is that enough to make her stay?
Omigosh this was an amazing read. I love it so! Clearly one of my favorites so far this year. This one is highly emotional. I both laughed and cried while reading it.
Pax. He’s sexy and comes with a lot of baggage. He doesn’t deal with his problems. Instead he abuses drugs and alcohol to feel numb. He lost his mother when he was seven years old and instead of dealing with the loss he’s ignored his feelings all these years.
Mila. I loved her. When she finds Pax in trouble and on the verge of dying from a drug overdose she can’t walk away. She has to try to save his life.
A few days later when she visits him in the hospital to make sure that he’s alright, Pax finds himself fascinated with her.
The attraction between these two is apparent from the beginning. Both are different but they have a few things in common. I found myself wanting them to get together and give a relationship a go.
A relationship is something Pax has never had. It’s all new to him but he tries really hard to not hurt Mila.
If You Stay was a fast read for me and I couldn’t put it down because I wanted to know how things would turn out for them. I wanted to see if Mila could help Pax deal with his inner demons and come out on the other side a better man.
The sexual scenes were not only well written but very hot. *fans self* Pax is definitely swoon worthy.
Up next is Madison’s story and I can’t wait to read it!